Wounds no longer fester in me.I know now the outline of my questions.I know where the answer lies.It lies out there in the world and the only thing that stood between me and the answers was my ignorance.There is no more being "anti establishment" ,no more blaming the system.Life is simple and its issues purely rational.

i guess this is life.I am happy today that good things are happening to my friends..they are finding their ground though the ground beneath my feet is shaky..i am rejoicing:)

Meet India the land where the rich,the influential,we the educated majority -the Hindu,the Muslim,the Christian ,the Sikh choose to turn a blind eye to the happenings around us just because we cant be bothered .

The govt is forced to listen to those who make the maximum noise.The hullabaloo over 26/11 by the rich,the vocal educated upper classes,the sms polls,the divisive public discussions reached the govt.And the Govt in sheer fright kept coming up with assurances,allegations against Pakistan…hammering away like a carpenter showcasing his skill.The affected common man is still unassured about receiving compensation let alone justice.Well you see he had no SMS poll to alert the government.

The Bhopal Union Carbide case fought by the weaker sections of the society languishes despite evidence,years of court orders just to get a fugitive extradited.The survivors still suffer, their 25 year old struggle,their candlelight vigils a grim testimony of the failure of the government.

Our govt screams and blames Pakistan for harbouring theheads of terrorist organisations.Pakistan a beleagured state on the verge of a breakdown with a raging war on one side,the Taliban threatening to take over on the other side ,pressurised by USA complies with our demands at times and we exult.

We talk of steps being taken in the right direction,of making headway.Justice being executed Yippppeeee!!!!Hang Kasab we shout.

What about Jagdish Tytler?What about Warren Anderson??Do they get relegated to the margins because the Sikh riots and the Bhopal gas leak were problems that affected only the non influential????Or was it because the opressors were all powerful Goliaths we could not dream of conquering?

We don’t get too bothered about these cases because there are no videos to remind us of the horrors inflicted,nobody cares any longer to have prolonged discussions…they dont generate TRP s you see..it makes no business sense…

We demand to get Warren Anderson extradited very feebly.How can we raise our voices against the super power that’s letting us lope by its side,to pick up bits and pieces that fall from their table?That doesn’t make economic and political sense at all..

We make a Sikh the Prime Minister.The party that had gone on a rampage in 1984 has made amends.Can cutting off a leg or a hand be compensated by naming the orthopaedic ward after the injured?

Well our markets are doing well.We have a good name with our erstwhile colonisers and present masters…we ll make money ,our economy ll stay strong.But as a nation today where are we ?This was definitely not what the makers of our nation had dreamt of.Our constitution talks of protecting the interests of the weaker sections,of treating the unequals unequally…..”where the head is held high and the mind is without fear……”

We today are back where it all began ..infighting,ourRajas and Sultans forced to bow down before the foreigners because we can not exist any longer without their support in trade,witout their political protection.The common man still oppressed…the army of the deaf-mute has to struggle to make ends meet.We have been morally taken over.The 62 nd year of freedom?????Are we a free country????

i have no questions,no prayers
there are never answers
curly hair of a kid with
beautiful eyes
brushed my hand
large innocent eyes looked up at me
filled with wonder
a feet or so tall
life must seem so big to those eyes
i would hate to destroy those dreams
i would hate to see the kid
grow up
and lose the peace residing in those eyes

my shadow follows me all over the place
i wanna peer through its eyes
watch my stumbling gait
pick up the dreams i leave behind
the feelings i crush beneath my heels
the words that sting
throw back hurts and worries
i wish life was simple

What do you do when your inbox remains empty,what do you do when no mail arrives...wat do you do when life seems like a perpetual wait......eyes open to darkness...your lips are are drooping at the corners and there is no reason to smile
what do you do when you keep banging against walls
what do you do when you see yourself changing..and though there is reason to stop the change,you don have the power
there lies the way but not the will
what do you do when changing seems the only way out
what do you do when boredom stifles you
what do you do when a way lies ahead of you
how do you push yourself on it
how do you judge whether its the right thing to do
what do you do when the world becomes strange and prickly
the wind seems harsh,the sun blinding

It hurts

i feel so angry today..as angry as i ve been feeling for days.What is going on in the world?????why do i fear today for the existence tommorow?i ve known forever that i had no control over my life.but i did have the chance to smile,to make someones day brighter..i thought god did give us that freedom..
Not any more,I am scared to talk to strangers,I am scared when strangers talk to me....people who don look like me i shy away from.I no longer tarry on railway platforms to watch the busy lives around me.
i dont stay out a moment more than necessary...it hurts at how alienated i have made myself from the world
the days seem harshly blinding the nights darker.people cling to their emotions their own selves a little harder,life seems a little more strange....